Hello, I’m Nesrin, a 23 year old widowed woman. I was widowed at a very young age, but no one knows what life brings. Luckily, I came across a bloodless man, and at this age, I saw all the difficulties of life. I got married at the age of 17 before I turned 18. It was an arranged marriage. My mother-in-law, my ex-husband’s mother, saw me and wanted to marry me. When my mother first told me, I said no, but then I was deceived by the handsomeness of the man who wanted me, and after thinking for a while, I accepted. Of course, if I had a mind now, it wouldn’t be like that, of course, but at that time, ignorance is a very bad feeling, I was deceived for a moment. Then when they came to ask for it, we met face to face, talked and put on a ring after we agreed. After being told, we accelerated our negotiations. The first days were wonderful, everything was like a dream. His behavior and attitude towards me managed to impress me. My love for him started and I felt like I belonged to him. After the promise, we got engaged immediately, and soon we got married. We didn’t experience anything until the wedding night. My dream was to be a good wife and a good mother for a lifetime, but the first days were good, but time passed and after a while, fights started. There is also my mother-in-law on him, and the discomfort he caused affected us more. After a while, there was neither love nor respect between us to become husband and wife. Everything started and ended in an instant. When things got mixed up, I wanted to start a new life, too, I was a young woman, I talked to my family, I almost said that everything will be okay, and when my family said that, I tried to be a little more patient so as not to be left in the middle. When I said patience, we had a life together for 2 more years, I realized that it would not be at the end of the job and I said that I wanted a divorce. Although he did not accept it at first, the room realized that we would no longer be husband and wife, and the room accepted to leave. After the divorce, my family’s attitudes continued, so I wanted to establish my own life and I was separated from my family. I had an old friend named Eda. I wanted to stay with him and be his roommate. A new life would be a new environment, marriage at a young age had worn me out. Saying hello to a new life would not have been easy. Eda, my roommate, had a very fast life, and she was going out and having fun every day. I used to always wait at home, but then I looked, I started going to the same places with the same friend. I used to go to clubs every night, drink and dance, I only saw them on TV in my married life, but when I get into it, it becomes something else. The alcohol addiction changed me a lot. I met a man in the place, I started to be with him. He was a very rich man. Because he was married and the elder of a family with children. I was meeting with him secretly, accepting it according to the conditions of life. A lot of money and easy money had blinded me, so I became worse and I was living a different life every day. After hanging out like that, I realized I was a sex addict. Since the married man I was hanging out with couldn’t fuck me much and wasn’t with me, I started looking for different things. He is married, I realized that every night in his wife’s bosom, a new love and a real sex machine would be good for me, and I met a man who hangs out with a mature single who I live in the same apartment. His name was Vedat, he was tall, handsome and knowledgeable. I continued my friendship with him, of course, I did not end with the man who was married at the time, because he had the money. After hanging around like that for a while, my neighbor, my new darling Vedat, said that you don’t need anyone anymore, I’m with you financially, leave that man, just be mine and move to me. I tried to believe and trust someone again, but I had made the worst decision of my life again. After using me for a few months and seeing his work, Vedat left me in the middle. As always, I was a woman who was left alone and started to have sex with every man that came my way and get money from them.
